Another update:
In today's session we talked more about the specifics. It was a good, albeit, uncomfortable session. I don't do well with hearing apologies from others. I'm much better at making the apology myself. Same with compliments and gift giving. So it was hard to hear L apologize. I took it in, and I accepted the apology. We actually discovered a lot about what happened: for her, for me, for us. There was a lot of clarity and it made sense for both of us. There's still more work with specifics that need to be done, but so far so good. I actually was happy to be with her today and was happy when I left. I feel good about us again. I'm feeling that comfort and security again.