My surgeon never called. I think it’s ok although I’m not sure when I can start working out and lifting things again. I do have a post op appointment with my primary in a week or so so I can discuss things with him then. I took 5 Xanax today. The 5th one didn’t do much. I took it half an hour ago along with 20 milligrams of melatonin. I wonder if there’s anything I can get besides Xanax that won’t wreck my weight loss progress. I know I need to cut down on the caffeine but sometimes things are worse without caffeine.

I’m just glad I barely think about my old therapist anymore and that I’m starting to forget things. The whole idea of therapy is sort of grossing me out right now.