I'm having another very lonely day. This time I am depressed. I don't know what to do with myself. I was busy all day with housework. I did a few fun things and I took a nap. Now I am wide awake and bored. I would keep doing housework but I am tired. I just took my meds. I took an extra Trazodone, which I can do. I'm hoping it helps me sleep. I'm thinking I might have some wine too. Half a glass will make me really sleepy. I'm all alone. My sister has cancer. She was staying with my mom while going through chemo. Chemo is hell! But my sister is back home with her husband. Today when I talked with my mom, all she did was complain about my sister. How terrible. Now I know she complains about me too. She has no respect for anybody.