My mood is going up, up, up. It started the last few days and tonight I'm too wound up to just sit still and watch a video or something. I've taken my PRN doses of gabapentin and will take my PRN klonopin if that doesn't work. I really need to sleep, just through the weekend. When I can reach my pdoc I can have my symptoms but the weekend is a bad time. If I'm high enough I'll boost my clozapine for 4 days and I'll come down. This is early for me to get my summer high so maybe it's a blip. I hope so; I don't have time for the clozapine pulse right now.

I hate hypo. I hate mania. I hate the jittery feeling that I can't shake.
I think I hate it all. Just for tonight.