So far today I feel pretty good. I got my shot and I feel like it leveled out my moods. I got 3 $1 iced tea instead of coffee. I tried Sonics bursting bubbles in my iced teas but only one of the teas had them. It was 50 cents to add them but it’s not a big deal. I had a Mountain Dew earlier and I haven’t eaten anything yet. But my anxiety is a lot better then I expected it to be. My pain isn’t really there today either. Things still look good. I’m kind of bummed my surgeon never called. But I see my primary on Thursday. So at least I’m seeing someone.

Edit: My anxiety is now kind of rough. My first Xanax went right through me. I’m trying not to take more then I’m prescribed today. I ate some roast beef and it just helped with my hunger. I wish I could get involved in a TV show. Right now I just have MeTV on. Some western is on. Maybe I’ll do laundry.

Edit #2: my anxiety is now a lot better and I’m actually in a decent mood. Maybe the Xanax is just taking longer to work now. I am able to do my laundry and clean up a bit in my room. I found my swim trunks that didn’t fit last summer and I thought I had donated them. They fit now though. I just ordered 2 pairs yesterday from Aeropostale. I’ll return those. I’m going to the lake in late July. It’s been a yearly thing since 2016 but last year I skipped it because of Covid. I’d like to be able to take my shirt off and swim but that may freak my uncles out a bit. They are accepting and stuff but me going without a shirt might be too much. Plus I’m not sure how things will look regarding my scars. I’m going to Michigan which I think is pretty liberal at least the part where I’m going but I’m not sure.