OK. I know how to not overcomplicate it now when I try to put it into words. All websites etc that list things for treatment of depression also list social support. That's what I don't have IRL (or very little, from family sometimes) and yeah, well, that would help me lift the mood, so then I would have less of a warm up problem.

So how do you get regular social support IRL if all of your IRL "friends" left because they didn't want to deal with you/be there for you in hard times?

Suggestions?!