I guess I’m dealing with some post op depression and I don’t know what to do. I don’t have a good therapist and my mom isn’t around right now and I don’t think I can text her. I’m just kind of at a loss right now.

I read this can last up to a month and at this stage a lot of anxiety is common. I’m also really paranoid. I feel like the government is watching me. I just took another Xanax and it isn’t helping. I don’t want to text my mom right now because she’s really busy but I need her.

I noticed today a teacher that I was very close to in high school deleted and blocked me on Facebook. He’s very transphobic, homophobic, and very pro life. When I announced I was transitioning in Feb 2020 he sent me a PM asking me to reconsider because no matter how many surgeries or hormones I took I’d still be female. He said he was just “looking out for me” and “wasn’t judging it was just what God wanted” we stayed friends though. I don’t know. I know I shouldn’t care but I was hoping him seeing how happy I was with my posts on my transition and surgeries would help him change his mind. I have other transphobic people on my Facebook but we are just civil to each other and we just agree to disagree. But yeah it does hurt a bit to have my favorite high school teacher be so biased against me to the point that he needs to block me.