Thank you soupe and bethrags. That helped ease my mind some.

I finally got about 6 hours of sleep. For the last 3 days before that I was only getting 4 hours a night. So I'm feeling less paranoid about things. And my period started, I always feel better after it starts.

Yeah I feel misunderstood on here sometimes. Take things too personal when you guys are just dealing with your own problems.

But I just have too much going on right now and I wouldn't be able to offer anything back right now. We are hopefully having the meeting with my sons team Wednesday. I have to prepare for that. His psychiatrist put him on 10 mgs zyprexa and he is on the invega injection and 12 mgs of invega in pill form. He was doing better but he gained like 20 lbs. So he wanted to be taken off the zyprexa and replace it with something. Well his psychiatrist just took him off it without replacing it with something. So now my son is completely psychotic again. I have been trying to get my son to sign a release of information so I can talk to his psychiatrist. He hasn't done it. So I talked to my son last night and he wants to go back on the zyprexa. It makes me angry bc my son has had 2 appts with him and he says no to putting him on anything else. My son told me that a lot of people there are on zyprexa. Zyprexa works very well I get that but it can cause a whole bunch of horrible side effects. I think the psychiatrist is just lazy and its just easier to put everyone on zyprexa. So hopefully I can talk to the psychiatrist at the team meeting. But it looks like he will be going back on zyprexa. And that's just one little thing I have to discuss with them.

Good news though, him and his roommate are getting along. I'm so glad. Hes just been relying on me for the majority of his needs. I kept telling him he needs to try and make some friends.

But the goal is to eventually

have him become stable and be able to get a apt on his own.

But I will post here and there I just can't really be supportive to others right now. I hope people understand that.

Thanks everyone and wish me luck that the team meeting is a success.

And to anyone struggling right now, I hope things improve for you.