I think I am very sensitive. I easily get disappointed when people break their promises. For example, when people don't show up at meetings, cancel on the day of the event, or when they do the opposite of what they said.
The perfectionist side though, I think I got from my mom's upbringing. When I was a child, my mom told me that mistakes are unacceptable. I'd be scolded if I get 1-2 mistakes in an exam and get punished if I make 3 or more. It's something that is deeply ingrained in me. I like the fact that it makes me work very hard, but when I'm having episodes I tend to commit mistakes and it makes me more and more frustrated. I had to learn to get used to being disappointed in myself because I can't be perfect, especially now that I'm older and losing memories and skills. Though this last one, I'm not sure if it's due to aging or side effects of medicine.
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