i can relate to what you're saying. This for me has been going on before covid i think. i think it may simply be due to depression at least in your case. Are you currently getting treatment? In any case i think that even simply trying to go and do new things is better than not trying at all so kudos to you for still giving it your best. Sorry if this post isn't really Helpful. Just try your Best. Stay Safe and Sending Love. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @annoyedgrunt84, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!