Hi bluekoi, thanks. And thanks for responding. Changing therapists is something I've thought of. Its something that will likely happen in the future. My T is not terrible. She's actually a wonderful person. I think I was just.....feeling like no one cares that I'd been feeling so down, but I think it may possibly be more like no one really knows. Weirdly, its something that does seem to pass, even if it stays for days, like this time, it does go away too. I don't talk about my depressed moods w my T much, I think bc being social, even with my T, I feel better. Its good to know about myself. But I left her a VM saying I needed to talk to her about my depression / the way I'm feeling.

My meds are ok I think. Though its not a perfect fix. I've had many difficult med changes in my life. I'm not open to another one at this time.

This weekend I reached out to my friends, and told them how I've been feeling. They were very kind and receptive. So I think my thoughts about them...were unfounded, I blame depressive thinking lol.

Thanks for the well wishes and luck re my job search.

Today was a better day.