I am being more talkative and more into doing things. I mean that I am not doing one thing all day long anymore. It seems like freedom is coming for me. I am also realizing insanity is one big word for a monster already cosmic size. It's coming around to me the hallucinations and delusions are truly not based in reality. And that means they are happening nowhere in time or space. Not to anyone. I think it means such a big deal it's coming around like this. But it means so much more. Because I am starting to learn the unrealness, it is just a perceptual disturbancy. It is caused by the not firing right neuroscience of my brain. And so I calm down a little. It does not mean so many things about me in poetry. It means that I need to put effort into correcting some of my habits. It is going to be a miracle once it all comes together. Sometimes I think I can fix myself. I have hope for myself, what can I say?