I understand what you mean and make an effort not to listen to the news and when I do, I see accusations (and people being made fun of ) being hurled from both sides of the political spectrum like there is a spiritual or political (another country or countries?) entity or entities trying to divide our country. I cannot fix it but try not to get involved in the divisive thoughts or contribute to the divisions. Like you, there are things in my own home that I need to overcome. Also, there are groups and organizations in our country that are helping the needy. There are also many in our country that are doing well. I try to think of something I can do everyday to help, not hurt others. I consider just trying to do my job well, cleaning my house and cooking food for others part of the solution. As far as I am concerned, small things count!

I understand how heartbreaking it is to have a child who is not doing well. I know it is hard, but try to just acknowledge the things that are breaking your heart but not dwell on what you cannot fix. Perhaps focus on your grandchildren? It sounds like you cared and tried but sometimes that is not enough. I have experienced this and with some things, you have to try to train your mind not to dwell on the things you do not have power over. Though I pray for my family and children daily. IMO, if we think too much about what went wrong in the past, it does effect our stability. Please do not try to focus on the things you have no control of and know that there are many things we cannot control. All we can control is our reaction to our environment and the people we are with and try to cultivate hope that there is some sort of action we can take for a better tomorrow. Try not to let your thoughts become mired in your son's choices. Though we need to be encouraging when presented with the opportunity, try to remember that he is responsible for his own decisions and actions.