Today I’m depressed but not as bad as I was yesterday. I woke up at 8:52. Which is really late for me. My mom is coming home today so maybe that’s why I am feeling better. I haven’t taken any Xanax yet. I’m going to try the one a day and if I can’t do it I’ll call my Pdoc. I also need to call my surgeon to see what’s up and if he’ll do a FaceTime with me. My chest hurts a bit and it’s still bruised and swollen.

I’ve lost some weight this past weekend due to depression and also motivation at the same time. My mom made a lot of food for me for the weekend and I didn’t touch some of it and I barely ate the other things. She’s going to ask what I ate and I don’t even know what I ate to be honest. I know I had some Goldfish crackers and a bag of corn yesterday.

I’m thinking of buying some Beats wireless headphones. They are on sale now at Target and Best Buy.

Edit: I ordered the head phones. Best Buy was out of stock but I got them from Target. I got a pretty good deal on them too.

I took the one Xanax I could take. I’m hoping it will work and be enough. I wish I had cut it up though.

Edit again: I for sure need another Xanax right now. My face is breaking out into a sweat and I’m just so anxious. Maybe I’ll try a cut up one. I don’t even know how to explain things to my doctor.