I had a wild morning. My clinician had a seizure right on camera in the middle of group! It was awful to watch even though I’ve seen quite a few when I was working in the special services school. We were all like wtf do we do? Numerous members called the other clinicians and the director of the program. I calmed down immediately when her mom came in and didn’t seem freaked out. That made me think that she’s had them before. Her mom said she had one that morning so I’m thinking she’s epileptic and was having a bad day. It was crazy though. Like it’s virtual so we were completely powerless. I’m so glad her mom was home and heard her fall out of her chair. The director came on in the next group and assured us that she was awake and alert and was being cared for.

In other news the switch has flipped again and I feel motivated and energized again. No urges to self harm. I didn’t have to force myself out to the gym and I even did a strength training workout when I got home. I messed up though and did moves that involved bending. I knew it would aggravate my back and I was right. I found a new video on YouTube though specifically designed to not put pressure on the lower back so I’ll try that next.

I’m getting another freaking migraine right now. I had one yesterday! I took the imitrex but for some reason it tensed up my shoulder and neck muscles and just switched the headache to the back of my head because of the tension! My pdoc said topomax is used for migraine prevention and I could try that. I might just do that. I can’t take this awful pain!