So sorry, KLL85. I've been through something very similar.

Fortunately, I had lucked into a good support group before the therapist terminated me, and I vented extensively in this forum. I was not rejected in either place.

I understand the not wanting to be alive any more.

I'm so sorry this happened to you, but glad -- given that it did -- you have been able to post about it here.

Keep on posting, you are NOT rejected here.