Zapatoes, first of all it is never a good idea to compare yourself to anyone else. And second, doing all the things your dad did or doing something that makes him proud.

He's gone. You're not. Live your best life. Not his.

I am sorry you have to experience loss, but it is a part of life. We all take our turn.

So, to have a life feel complete I do not think it is full of comparisons or looking back at what is gone.

Best of everything to you!
Atargatis