Things are rough right now. I’m wondering if I’m having an existential crisis. My mom opened the blinds herself in my room because I’ve just been wallowing in the dark all day and she says it’s not good to not have any sunlight. I won’t go to the grocery store with her either. My headphones are ready for pickup at Target and I’ll go tomorrow to get them. Usually I want to pick up stuff immediately that’s come in. I haven’t eaten much today because I haven’t had any desire to eat. I’ve basically just eaten crackers today. I had some noodles though and some frozen grapes. Basically I just don’t have the energy and this happened right after my surgery on Friday. I didn’t think it would be this bad since it’s summer and not fall unlike the last one. So I don’t have any SAD or pandemic fatigue this time. But the post op depression is still bad.