So Sorry you're struggling! Please do not give up! i agree with the wise and wonderful Alive99. Just do whatever you can to cope with this situation. i think this pandemic may have really exacerbated some of the issues we already had before. i feel like finding a good doctor may go a long way. Definitely try to seek assistance. Hopefully things will improve soon for everyone. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @lowpoint, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!