when you effed up an entire session, emailed incessantly that night to your T, and THEN text her today asking if she had a few minutes to talk. I never heard back, so I am spiraling even deeper about this. Now she needs time to figure out the best way to terminate me. I pushed way past her boundaries, but also am so full of hate about how i acted in session.

Is this a rupture? Is this what it is like, the constant anxiety about how much you are an eff up? Convinced your T hates you.