Learning to experience these feelings is part of my work, as unpleasant as I find them. I am learning that the desperation passes and that these misconnections are not disastrous, at least they have not been so far.

Can you try and do something with the feelings? I write them out or do other creative work. Sometimes I swim or stretch, things which bring me right into myself and centre me. This is important to me so I can feel myself rather than gravitating towards my therapist and focussing on her feelings.

Whatver you do or don't do, it's $hitty tolerating the waiting and the discomfort. It won't last though.