I'm sorry to hear you're getting jerked around like that...& am also sorry I'm late in responding. What caught me attention was the title of this thread -- "Since I am bipolar." I hate to sound pedantic, but I prefer saying, "I have bipolar disorder." The former seems to indicate that you're letting the disorder define one, rather than one having some degree of control over matters. I know, I know...Tomato...Tomatoe. Just my two cents...