Me and my boyfriend were messing around and I had a terrible flashback. I'll give you the background first. Five years ago my bf at the time held me down, grabbed my hand and forced it on a little girl...I haven't been the same since. Well, when me and my bf were messing around he guided my hand to where he wanted it...that did it. I felt like I was back in that place five years ago...just like it was yesterday. I can't handle the flashbacks from that particular event. I didn't tell my bf that I had one...I don't want him to worry. He would. It's been 5 long years since that happened, why can't it just be over with? I never want to feel that again...I never want to know that again!