Dear T,
OK, I feel less good about the second email now. I really hope we can work through...whatever this is. That it's just some sort of blip. I mean, I know we've worked through much bigger things before. I just feel...I don't know. If I can't fully understand or explain how I feel, how am I supposed to expect you to magically get it? And say whatever words I need to hear? It's not fair of me.


I wish the timing of all of this had been different, like if you'd had to miss Wednesday, and then we could have just talked on Friday. Monday seems far away. I don't want to ask you for any of the times you semi-offered (particularly not Friday evening, if you'd been at a funeral that day) unless it feels like I truly need them, like for outside reasons. Not due to something with our relationship. And I feel that more email is a bad idea. Maybe I'll just journal on it.


Love,
LT