I got a FB friend request today from the same person who caused me the repetitive childhood trauma that set off this in the first place. It is disgusting, I know, sorry if it sounds triggering. If this does not throw me into deep dissociation, I am on a really good place, which is incredible, considering where I was less than half a year ago...I feel pretty coherent these last weeks, I didn't dissociate even while lecturing in public, which was something I regularly did for years...I want to say: I am not afraid any more. He should be afraid of me.