I'm aware that I'm making things more difficult than they need to be. Today it feels like the gears in my head are grinding and grinding but not getting anywhere. It's not a calm feeling for sure the gears are grinding away but nothing is happening. I don't know, I didn't sleep well at all last night I may need to take a nap or just see how I feel after I get up tomorrow. When I say I feel dumb I mean I feel like I can't keep track of conversations or put thoughts together in my head in a way that is coherent.