i agree with the wise and wonderful TishaBuv that it may be a result of low self-esteem among others. So Sorry that you have to put up with this but i Hope you'll be able to get through this perhaps with the Help of a therapist or Doctor. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @annoyedgrunt84, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!