My friend will be going back to NYC starting in September. I feel sick about it. I try to remind myself that he was living in NYC before the past two years, but he had my apartment to sleep in. He will be getting rid of my apartment before September I guess. If I want to go back I guess I could try but as I get older my health will be in worse shape and I might not be able to manage living alone. I still can't take the stairs alone.

If I want to live independently I'd better start whatever I have to do. Hopefully someone can help me with the stairs when I have med appointments. My friend was coming every time I had an appointment before I got committed until the horrible day I refused to go to the pdoc, and he was so mad at me he called an ambulance on me. And I ended up here. September is really close. Moving out will be a major undertaking. I don't know what to do.