I’m so confused. I think I’m having withdrawals from the Xanax so does that mean I take another Valium? I’ve only had one today. I don’t want to end up in the ER because I’m worried my pdocs license will be yanked. And he is being pretty irresponsible. My old T told me many times that my behaviors could have cost her her license. As for seeing her I highly doubt she’ll take me back with the transference issue and the possible ED thing. It doesn’t bother me as much today as it did yesterday though. I haven’t heard from anyone today. Even the pharmacy was mucking around since 5:30 last night until my mom actually went in and talked with them.

But I feel super dizzy and shaky right now. I saw online that Valium is more addicting then heroin. I threw out my melatonin. In the big garbage bin in the garage where I can’t possibly get to it.

Now my eyes are itching and watering like crazy and I feel like I’m freaking out. I still haven’t taken the second Valium.