I have all these hallucinations before I fall asleep. It's every night! I cannot seem to remember to tell my doctor about it. They are most of the time really sexualizing. They just run wild. And it was worse, but I cannot seem to think some things about myself because of this. There are hallucinations which I feel contact with my body. There are visual things. And also when I close my eyes it just runs so wild, it's stranger than fiction. And it comes on right when I try to lay in the bed. I cannot tell if it is my imagination run amok or if it is seriously hallucinations.

What do you all think?

I think that it is wildly sexualizing. And during that part when it was wilder, it was really abusive sex. Like BDSM. I am always trying to escape when I go to bed. Sometimes I don't go to bed at all because it's always just rushing to my head. A wild fantasy gone to "I don't need to think anymore".

Touches, humps, tickles all felt. And there are wild visuals going on if I imagine it for myself or not. And of course I don't even do it anymore.