L and I talked more today about the confusions we both had during the rupture. Overall, it went well. There was a little hiccup, but it was resolved quickly. We both apologized for our part of the confusion, we set up clarified expectations, and we did a little brainstorming about how to get me to ask for a call when I need it (I struggle so much with that!). We still have two more points to work on: the two disclosures that I didn't ask for. That will probably have to wait till next Friday because she's out of town next session. L says she's proud of me and feels like I'm including her as part of my team. It's so uncomfortable because it's all so unfamiliar too me (re: accepting apologies). But I'm trying and learning that it's okay.

I'm so glad L and I are back on the right track. Even she was worried because she knows how much I'm depending on this relationship right now. But we both feel the connection again, and I am definitely feeling the strength and safety of our relationship again.

I want to thank you all for helping me through this. I'm taking it one step at a time and learning to trust the process. I'm definitely not trying to push for anything to be resolved by a certain time, just letting what comes up come up.