I think I figured things out. I haven’t had caffeine in 2 days. Things have been really bad for about 24 hours. I was drinking a ton of caffeine before. I was drinking a large coffee then a couple cans of Pepsi zero a day. Then I suddenly stopped all of it once my anxiety and appetite got bad. But I have all 8 symptoms of caffeine withdrawal so I’m wondering if I just need a large coffee and then a Valium after to feel better and back to normal.

It is complete hell though to have both a benzo and a caffeine addiction. And to try to go off both of them at the same time will not work. I’ve been in bed with a migraine all day. I mostly just drink caffeine free diet Mountain Dew and water these days but I often get coffee in the mornings.

My Pdoc is kind of an idiot. I even told him I was running out of my Xanax early and he didn’t seem to think there was any type of issue going on even though I told him “I am completely out of control with my Xanax.”

What doctor does this kind of stuff?

I’m listening to “I still Haven’t Found What I’m Looking for” by U2. This one reminds me of my “current” T. “With Or Without You” also by U2 from the same album reminds me of old T.