I've been hurting physically lately. So there's not much I can do around my house. I can't even take my trash out. I can't walk. And yet I can't get any help with it. I'll have to pay a trash removal company to come out and haul away my trash. I guess it's okay. I have some boxes with junk that need to go. But I wasn't ready yet to have that hauled away. I guess some times you just gotta do what you gotta do. I feel very depressed. I feel useless and like there's no hope. I had a back procedure done but my knees hurt so much that I can't walk. I can't even get a parking sticker. That's why I'm in bad shape. I had to walk half a mile the other day to the doctor's office cause I couldn't park close enough. It really tore up my legs. I'm just a waste of space and no one cares about me.