I’m doing a ton better today. I took my Geodon and a Valium at 4:30 this morning instead of 1AM. Then I went back to sleep until about 9. My one Valium is still working. My chest hurts though so I took a muscle relaxer just now. My mom and I were out all morning. We went to a variety of stores looking for bar stools. We didn’t find them but I found a weighted vest, it’s for exercising but I’m going to use it for anxiety. It’s only 4 pounds. I had a weighted vest awhile ago that was 20 pounds and way too heavy and it was really bulky. I was thinking last weekend of ordering one specifically for autistic people but they are more than $60. The one I got today was only $20 and I can wear it under my clothes. I also got a DARE hoodie. DARE is nostalgic for people in my age group. That’s why they make hoodies and shirts now with the saying.

But I’m doing a lot better today and I’m not lightheaded. I think going to the ER eased my mind about things and the pain meds they gave me last night helped a lot.

My mom also thinks I’ve been pretty traumatized by my “current” T which may have made my pain worse. I know I was having a lot of anxiety yesterday which I thought was Xanax related but I think it was just severe stress from her. I don’t think I was having legit withdrawals.