You are overstepping professional boundaries asking coworkers to do whatever you call "therapy." with you.

The changing of your name is creepy. Buying the same shake for the person outside is strange.

Ruby, I'll tell you the truth and then I'm going to leave your threads alone. Sometimes it seems like you fill your posts with weirder and weirder details and it almost feels like you're playing with us.

If you really are behaving like this at your workplace, you have no business working at all. If you're not on disability, you should probably look into that.