I’m getting frustrated with this whole therapy situation. It should not be this hard for someone to answer me. I don’t have that ****** of a personality or that big of a diagnosis that I should be ghosted by 3 therapists at the same time. If my mental health didn’t suck and if my Pdoc didn’t want me in therapy so badly I wouldn’t do it. I’m just at a loss.

My PMDD is really bad for the second month in a row. I know last time I had that weird psych reaction from my second Covid shot. Then this month I’m dealing with all the post op pain and depression that goes along with the surgery. So it could be that these last two PMS’s were bad because of that stuff. But I am at the point where I am going to have to get a hysterectomy for my mental health’s sake. Because feeling like this for 10 days straight out of each month is really wearing me down. I have the name of a doctor I just have to wait until July when I get my new insurance to set up an appointment.

I don’t know how I’m going to make it through the night to be honest. I feel so sick both physically and mentally right now. I’ve had all my meds and a zofran. I’m not sure what else to do. If I go to sleep now I’ll be up most of the night and I don’t want another one like last night.