HangingOn, yeah...i did go thru that and a lot of them. but really, (as much as it hurts and as scary as it is) better out than in. mind, i didn't think so then. But looking back I am better for it. "You can't burry worms, they keep coming back up" - but once they're out, the next time you have to deal with it it isn't nearly as bad (in my experience).
I totally know it sucks and is painful and feels like the world is ending. Keep breathing if you can, and know that this is only happening because just now you are finally strong enough to actually process it.... much as it feels like you're not. Your brain won't show you stuff until you're ready.
((((((((((((((((Holding On))))))))))))))))))))))))
keep posting....