Last night I took 180 milligrams of Geodon, 30 milligrams of melatonin, and 8 milligrams of Valium. I was so depressed. I fell asleep and I had some sleep paralysis which included some kind of monster on my bed, and some vivid dreams, then I woke up at 2:30 feeling ok physically.

I’d get help if I could. But right now I don’t have anyone. I sent 2 emails to my T asking what was going on. I think she thinks I’m pushing boundaries. But I still need to hear from her.

I’m just so confused.