I'm happier as a loner. But I can't be alone anymore because of the voices. I miss my solitude so much. I yearn for it painfully. I was so happy with my many interests, which require solitude to enjoy. So many wonderful enjoyments have been taken away from me by the voices. I loved reading the classics & going back into time & using my imagination. I loved studying & learning. It was like "ooo ah!" all the time. I still get that a little bit by googling things & learning something new. The voices won't let me watch my DVDs, some of which I love very much. I have many, animated, nature, love stories, science fiction, spiritual, musicals,.... And my music! We don't listen to the CDs, etc. anymore. But some of of the voices sing & they let me google songs they like & we listen on my cell phone. So those are good moments.