I posted this thread almost exactly 2 years ago. It's been 8 months since I've logged on. In those 8 months I suffered a severe head injury and a massive concussion. Both injuries happened while drunk on dates. So, my life hasn't changed much in the last 2 years. I continue to chat with several men a day and also watch porn and masturbate at least once a day. I can barely go 6 days without sex. I'm ecstatic if I have 2 dates a week, especially if they are paid dates. I had a major depressive episode and formed a very detailed suicide plan. Thankfully, I got a friend's help, and here I am.
Almost every person I know has told me to get help. It just makes me angry and then I avoid them for a while. So, there it The unloading here...... I seriously feel a bit of weight off when I message here.