My pain is basically gone. The vertigo is still there but I think I need to eat more. I called my therapy practice. They said the one that my old T referred me to isn’t taking any new clients. So I looked online and asked about a couple others. One could only fit me in once a month. Then the next one could see me on July 4th and then every week. But she doesn’t take my insurance so I’d be paying $100 a session. I set up the appointment anyways and if I like her then I’ll see what I can cut out or see her every other week or something. But I never heard back from my old T, or the one Pdoc tried contacting.

Then immediately after I got off the phone with them my insurance called. My old insurance was cancelled so my mom set up a new plan. But it’s an HMO which means you can only see specific doctors on a list. Not every primary doctor will prescribe my injections and I want a trans friendly one. I’m just gonna not get sick (like it’s in my control) so I can avoid them. But I liked my old doctor despite the fact he often looked at me like I had 2 heads. I feel like HMO insurances suck and so do the doctors

But I plan on paying out of pocket for my Pdoc. I only see him every 3 months so $300 a session isn’t that big of a deal. I mean it is, but I can’t risk losing any of my meds because some random doctor doesn’t like them even if they work for me.

So I’m just kinda stressed today with the whole insurance and therapy thing. Plus my weird bleeding came back last night and I’m going to have to find a second doctor who’s trans friendly who can help me out and who’s on their stupid list. This feels like being on Medicaid even though it’s Medicare.

I hope my mom is regretting this move because it really doesn’t seem like it’s working out much. Losing my doctors was the one reason I didn’t want to move and for awhile it looked like I could keep seeing them.

My PMDD is the worst it’s been in a year so maybe I’ll be calmer in 5 days and I’ll be able to think more clearly and have a better positive outlook on things.