Hey want to tell you about something. but right now I am so upset, and know that it would not even do much. hate when something in 2021 happens and It brings me back to feeling old stuff from years ago. My son was falsely accused of not wearing his seabelt with me in the car. He had adjusted his seatbelt after hitting the brakes as it locked up the belt since a moving truck wanted to cut him off right infront of us and in front of the cops. We had jokingly said how dear the truck cut us off in front of a cop and the cop do nothing. As we pulled away, my son realized in the rear view mirror he was gonna be pulled. this whole thing about being faslely accused has brought up injustice feelings of my own traumas. I am angry. Pissed off and yet I can't do anything. My son left for work and I burst into tears. I want to reach out to you. and I cant. I know you wont respond back. I try hard to accept your boundaries of basically no emails or texts will get responded to even though its okay to send them to you. I just feel its damn useless now. Why bother. I am so pissed offl I wrote something on Nextdoor to the LT of the town of police where it happened and hope to get this resolved as he responded back and told me he would forward to his patrol division. I am not hopefull as police have not been fair to me, I was in a hotel room over 20 years ago, and was being raped, I got away and ran out, asking someone to call 911 and they did. The police showed only to never make it into the room or even the bathroom where I was being held captive by 5 guys bound and gaged. Again during a mental health crisis, while asking for a patient advocate the chief of police had thrown me off the bed, for no reason but to say I was non compliant and used excessive force. I sit here now, so disappointed in society, in our system, in me, in myself. Just not in a good place at the moment, and I cant tell you. I am tired of feeling alone, and even when i go to a place to say what happened its a place that does not allow for validation. So I come here and write Keep it inside. I thought ACA would be a place to help, its not. Not when you are encouraged not to validate someone's experience. I dont feel heard and just told over 60 people via a zoom meeting. I feel that lost child in me so much right now. And I realize this is a journey to have on my own. I will not bother anyone with this. I have to accept and understand your position is only one that is every Thursday at 10:30 am and for that hr I can get everything I need and once its over I am on my own. I dont have friends, family isnt all that validating and so I am realizing I am truly alone in this so called recovery. I just wait for the day you tell me your retiring. Then I truly know its over. i have had it with people. I dont trust and cant and dont think I ever will. My only other outlet is here on this forum. So thanks