I’ve made it to IOP! I don’t have to do 5 day a week partial anymore. I’ve been in PHP since may 18. It’s a pain in my *** to be online five days a week for four hours a day. Thank god I didn’t do the other program, that was six hours a day. No way I would have made it lol.

I’ve been putting off a lot of stuff. I got a $3500 bill from my first hospital stay. Obviously I don’t have $3500 laying around, so I have to call to set up a payment plan that automatically withdraws from my account. I’ll never remember it otherwise.

I’ve also been putting off wedding stuff. Our wedding is in four months and all I’ve secured so far is a location. I really need to find an officiant first and foremost because without one there is no wedding. Then I can look for the rest. A photographer is important to me. I was going to get a florist for fresh flowers but now I’m thinking I’m going to go the route of my first wedding and do them myself with silk flowers from the craft store. I do have a good eye for design. I used to make jewelry and I worked in a frame shop for awhile. It’ll be easy enough to make three bouquets and clutch of flowers for my niece to carry. I’m not getting a super fancy dress that will have to be altered. I’m going totally low key this time around. I don’t have a controlling husband and mother in law to contend with.

I was totally overwhelmed thinking about our upcoming vacation. I have not been on a weeklong trip since I was 16 when we went out to California to visit my great grandmother on her 90th birthday. I’ve been on long weekends a handful of times but trying to pack and plan for a whole week plus an 8 hour car trip was stressing me out. But I’ve been told the trip is Sunday to Sunday so I have a whole extra day with RS home the whole day to prepare. I really feel so much better. RS also talked to his family and explained how I am. I am an introvert so being around people zaps my energy pretty quick and I need to be able to be alone and decompress for awhile. I was afraid they were going to think I was being rude. But they are awesome supportive people so they have no problem with it. I feel better about that too. I talked about it in group today because I was worried and my group members reminded me to take a travel “self soothe kit” with me. My unicorn, the scented putty I bought, my kindle so I can read. All good ideas I hadn’t even thought of. I’m still very nervous but I think it’ll be ok once we get there.

I’m SO glad my program dr listened to me and gave me the seroquel XR. I feel a million times better. I’m a bit tired during the day but not to the point of falling asleep. I think it’ll be better by the time I start work again in September.

I did a strength training workout today and I don’t think I’m going to be able to walk tomorrow lol. Squats are not my friend! I also found out I can’t do lunges because of my knee pain. So it’s really just a matter a following the YouTube videos and figuring out which moves are going to work for my body.