So Sorry for what you're going through! Please do not give up! i don't think you're a useless person. Completing courses can be difficult especially if one is already struggling with other things. Please be kinder to yourself. Can i ask you why you are not currently seeing a counselor? i think that may Help a bit. Of course the decision to see one is yours. Please do try to consider it at least. i Hope things will improve soon for everyone and that you will see yourself ina better way. Many Hugs. Stay Safe. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @black-roses, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!