I'm sorry to read that you are still feeling so unwell. I can imagine that a change in medication provider is anxiety-provoking. I would certainly hope the new NP wouldn't just stop any benzo. If they hint at it, perhaps a compromise would work. Meaning just a mini step down in dose?

My new Czech psychiatrist was relieved to hear that I had recently been weaned off of my small dose of Klonopin. However, I did tell him that I still have Ativan for "as needed" purposes, though I will say that I rarely take it. I think he likely will prescribe it in the far future, if I really need it. Perhaps your fears about your NP are more than will be the case.