Little bit of a back story- Last summer I was working with a therapist that meant the world to me but was unethical and had a personal role with me pretending to be my mom and went on a leave of absence and totally disappeared. It has been rough ever since with lots of grief and still not completely over that loss. Then in the fall I started with a new therapist even though I really did not want to because the hope at the time was that the unethical one would be back. I have been working with this new therapist for 8 months and we have done great work and there has been lots of progress. Last week she said she is terminating me because she wants to focus on her core specialty, needs the sessions I have each week for her new clients and that it is "to much" for her and she consulted with her supervisor who I am guessing told her its best to terminate. I have another month with her to figure out the next steps.

I have no clue what to do. I am still messed up from the unethical therapist and that ending and now have to end again. I don't trust therapists anymore and I don't have the emotional energy to start with someone new and I can't rehash my whole story again. Every time I have started over it takes months in the "get to know you" stage before real work begins and I can't waste anymore time. I have had over 13 therapists at this point and am traumatized and drained from starting over and ending so many times. I want and probably need to take a break from therapy but with the severity of my mental health and what is going on with my life, I am not sure its a good idea to loose that safety net. Has anyone else taken a break or stopped therapy because its to much to keep going through the pain over and over?