I feel your pain!! I’m currently in the same position. Other than my job I have zero motivation. Yesterday was my first day off for the summer and I just laid on the couch binge watching tv shows. I don’t feel like getting up to do anything really and I know it’s going to make my depression worse but I can’t help it. I’m so sorry you are going through this rough patch too. The only thing I remotely look forward to is that this is a mood disorder so I’m bound to feel better one day. I just wish I could be put on the right meds.

Do you think anything might be triggering it? I think part of mine is the aftermath of the decisions I make during hypomania. So far twice I have felt I was in a stable and normal state but now I’m not sure what normal is anymore. Am I just a lazy person or is this my disorder? I think back to before the disorder hit and I know there were times I didn’t want to do much but I don’t remember it being an everyday thing… so it’s got to be the disorder, but is this my new normal?

I’m sure you question it too. Thanks for being open and sharing and I’m glad to see another teacher around here. I know we can make it despite this stupid illness we have. I made it through a serious depression. Now I’m depressed again but it’s not as bad.