So Sorry for what is going on! Please Do not give up! i'd suggest to keep insisting with your Pdoc to try a med change if it's not working out. i don't really know many meds myself though so unfortunately i can't really suggest many alternatives other than depakote which i tried. If things don't work out with this Pdoc perhaps it's worth seeing another one? i am not sure if that is possible. i Hope things will improve really soon for everyone and that you will be able to find what you're looking for. Many Hugs. Stay Safe. Try your best. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @scatterbrained04, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!