In a way you are lucky to have those memories because then you actually KNOW where certain thoughts & feelings you have come from.
I remember thoughts & feelings but don't have a clue as to where they originated from. Sometimes I wish I could go back & view my childhood as a fly on the wall.
I remember being so embarrassed by my parents I didn't want anyone to know they were my parents. Not the normal kid embarrassed by their parent kind of thing but really embarrassed from as young as I can remember. I fought them treating me like a child because being the only child I thought they were trying to keep me their baby & I just wanted to grow up & get out of there. I am guessing it was probably something I overheard someone saying because those thoughts are not normal for a 5 year old....I just remember always feeling u comfortable around my parents. Therapy at age 60 helped me understand that their behaviors were weird & that I was not wrong but I wish I had the memory of what happened that made me realize it in the first place. My mom didn't drive & my dad worked nights so I didn't get out to be around other kids much except the boys in my neighborhood & I was definitely an outdoor Tomboy kinda kid....It will be a mystery my whole life