😭😭😭 his middle spawn is 15. His 3 spawns are a year apart from each other in age. The older 2 spawns are working (don’t know where but half the places in town hire 15 year olds now). If one of them got hurt like I had he wouldn’t tolerate it like my parents do. Hell my parents insisted I brought it onto myself. But I don’t worry about them getting hurt like I have. Cuz whoever they idolize are likely to appreciate it. They have the same good luck as kaitlyn from Arby’s. And Julie who also idolized the Arby’s supervisor when back she was at Wendy’s. (That old bag worked at Wendy’s for 25 years before Arby’s).

Now that I think about it, I’m pretty sure if I were raped, they would tell me to stop acting like a hoe. Cuz Asian blame the victim culture seem worse than the American ones that brought on the #metoo movement.

I hope if I were currently 15 and working for him at his new store, I might have better luck. Or maybe not. The supervisor from Arby’s, her 2 boys are significantly older than me. Hell her older spawn is 14 months older than my former McDonald’s GM (making them 41 and 40 respectively).

I’m just afraid if I force myself not to care about anyone, I would end up not being human. Without the capacity for human feelings, empathy, caring relationships.

Scene from TV series ER:

A seasoned ER physician advocated for a young minority medical school applicant to be given a chance at med school. He was competing with white applicants who had equally good credentials, at best. He got in but decided not to go.

ER doctor was taken aback by his choice, so young person explained he couldn’t deal with all the sickness, pain, and suffering.

Doctor: you’ll get used to it,
Young person: that’s what I’m afraid of

I watched this episode in high school and I instinctively knew he was afraid of losing his humanity. And so am I. I always been. I don’t want to be reduced to a machine, or psychopath, or Harry Potter dementors. Why can’t people understand?